Having experienced a powerful significant healing in my life

My suffering lasted every minute of every day for 17 years.

It was an emotional problem, that was connected to a relationship, and I experienced a real sense of pain that had a profound effect on my life

I constantly relived my past and therefore stopped moving forward with my changing circumstances.

Any time I tried to move on, opportunities to rekindle my past would always be put to me.

It felt as if my mind and body were relentlessly fighting each other. I knew what was right and what was wrong - my mind wanted one thing and my heart wanted something else.

I became reclusive and an introvert - concerned only with my own feelings.

After 17 years I reached a point in my life that I couldn’t take anymore. I became unable to control my emotions and actions. I became angry and violent with those close to me. I often wondered why God had allowed this to happen to me.

Knowing this couldn’t continue; I wanted to end my marriage, destroy my family and submit to my desire. Since I no longer had the strength to fight it. As I thought I was already experiencing hell on earth and believed God had abandoned me anyway. Nothing mattered to me anymore

Feeling tormented and alone I turned to Christ, broken and on my knees

I asked Him to forgive me my past and that I was sorry for any wrong I had caused others.
I asked Him to take away my pain.
I asked Him to give me strength in my weakness.
I asked Him to love me.
I asked Him to show me how to love.
I promised to bring my children up to know Him.
I promised to do whatever He wanted me to do.
I promised to serve Him with all my heart.

After years of trying to fight my own desire in my own strength and eventually not succeeding. God simply poured out his grace on me and blessed me with His love.

It was through my suffering the truth about Jesus and the power of God was revealed to me. I would sooner die than let go of Him. I love him passionately with all my heart, for all that He has done for me. He has given me a new life one that is filled with passion, love and purpose.

Jane and her husband Kevin were recently baptised at Radyr Baptist Church, as a sign to those present that they have chosen to follow God. They are active and enthusiastic members of the church, brimming with new ideas and a passion for the lost.

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